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She would tell me that I was in a hole. I would teach to others that people speak our fears back to us. They verbally speak what we feel inside. That is what she was doing. She was mirroring back my doubt. Sometimes when I was on the phone, I couldn’t see that. But once I got in another space I could. It showed me I had to shift my feelings on it.

I had created my financial situation over the past eleven years. I don’t blame myself for the choices I made. I was unconscious to what I was creating. But once I knew better, I could not keep creating it. The trick is that once you understand the game, you can’t play anymore.

If I did, I would get a harsh reminder by my universe to stop doing that. I had to figure out how the new game worked.

My universe would always make sure I had money for food. The other bills would wait. Sometimes the mortgage would wait. Now the first time this happened my human was breathing into a paper bag. When It happened the second time, I took it in stride. I would use this as a gauge of how much fear was left. If I was afraid of getting calls from bill collectors, I would have to work through that energy. Once none of it bothered me anymore, my financial situation would improve. I had to stop giving my power away to my financial situation. I was still in charge. Many people had gone through a situation where they could not pay their bills. I had to stop the judgment I had around it.

I had to stop the judgement around how the money came in too. My human wanted to have tons of clients beating down the door to pay me. It wanted my on-line store sales to be through the roof. I did not want to be cleaning my house, babysitting and getting money from my parents. But there I was. I had gone from making six figures to getting super excited to have twenty dollars in my wallet. I would be excited to put gas in the car. It was a different place to be. A humble space to be.

I said earlier that money never made anyone happy. I stick by that. In some ways, I was happier than I had ever been. I will admit that the money situation would frustrate me sometimes but I knew it was a phase that would improve. I would say to myself, “do you really think you are going to starve in your house?” I knew deep down the answer was no.

My biggest supporters during this time, were my parents. Yes, the girl who had moved out of the house at 18 was taking money from her parents. How many hits would my ego take? Over the course of 2019, they would give me $20,000. Which I used to pay my mortgage, utilities and food. I lived on $20,000 in 2019. There was no extra. But I was still standing.

When you are an adult, there is a lot of self judgement about taking money from your parents. I had to understand that at this point in my life, that was their role to play. But I also knew it was a karmic timeline.

It would only be aligned for a little while. Every time my mother would send money, she would mention me getting a “real” job. I knew my parents wanted me to go back to a corporate job and I knew I wasn’t. I knew the money would eventually not be aligned. But that also meant I was moving into a different phase.

My parents would see things through a different lens. They were aspects of me that didn’t understand the choices I was making. They didn’t see me doing anything tangible to improve my situation. I understand that it might look that way. I lived in a different world where the old rules didn’t apply. I had no interest in them anymore. My parents were embedded deeply in those worlds as were so many others in my life. I knew this could not last. I feared that day. I knew what it meant.

I lied many times to keep the money coming. I would tell my parents I would go back to a normal life. It brought up so much shame and guilt. I dreaded that phone call monthly asking them for assistance. I was clearing so much fear. It was rough.

I knew that my life would never be back to “normal.” I had a new normal. My first priority was my vibration and what I was creating in the world. My life did not revolve around playing out the old anymore. I knew they didn’t understand that. I would not try to explain it. They fulfilled their contract and supported me. I thank them so much for that. They were a huge gift from my universe. It might not have been how I wanted the money to come in, but it came in. That was all that mattered. All my emotions around it had to come up to leave.

I knew something else would come in as a financial support system. I was no longer in the business of figuring out what that would be. Nothing had gone the way I thought it would. Most of my friends thought I was in the middle of a horror story. I will admit sometimes it felt that way. But I knew I was being taught respect, integrity and honor from the soul’s perspective. It was a learning period. There was a part of me that wanted to see where things would end up.

***2026 Annette- 2019 was rough. First off, I had to sell my house at the end of that year. Aligned realities are not that hard. And my reality had gotten hard. I was trying to stay in the same place and have something new happen. So after 10 years there, I sold. Took the profits and had enough money to live without support for 6 months. After that six months, I had no idea what came next. I needed a miracle**** Turns out 2020 brought me one.

Well maybe I did not fully understand the why. But I did understand the when. It was not time to write about a Universal Law. Something else had to come first, a pause. Over the years, my universe has asked me, many times, to “take a moment.” I used to be excited about taking a break, embracing the vibrational shifts as my reality morphed. What felt aligned in one moment was not aligned in another. After a while, I got use to this cosmic dance. The “will I” or “won’t I” plot line that became intertwined in my journey.

Sometimes I would get lost in that moment, overstaying my welcome, delaying my return. In my early days, disconnecting from everything was a reprieve. Now, it felt like a stall. I could feel my ego poking at me to move forward, when all I wanted to do was stand still. It was my “wish” to freeze a moment. It became not so much about the article but the passing of time that it represented. It was another item checked off, validation I was still here. It was time to accept that I was uninspired. At one point, I would have called this a void space. A body template clearing/rewrite that would bring forward new information/inspiration.

But this did not feel like a void space. It felt like a “human” space. Though I knew it has a different resonance. When I was deep in my human experience, taking a step back felt like a misstep. A time to make a correction. My human would label the step back as a time to fix something. If everything was going great, there would be no need to step back. As messed up as my human reality was, there is certain clarity in that. I stop. I fix. I restart. My human experience was filled with start and stops.

In many ways, my ascended realities are too. Though the purpose of the stop is not to “fix.” The purpose is to rediscover the “flow.”

Today, I sat in my “moment.” I acknowledged that my body was tired and my soul light felt dim. In that came the frustration of not wanting to “push through.” The self judgement felt like a wave washing over me. I could say that my “moment” was completed. Honestly, it does not feel over. It felt started. I am actually writing this in my “moment.” I’m glad I did.

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As I progressed in my journey the job began to change. By the middle of 2015, I could work from home one day a week. That at least aided me with the driving issue. It also showed me I was moving into another phase. By the middle of 2016, I would be told to stay home for months at a time. I still had little to do but at least I didn’t have to drive there to do it.

Yes, I still got my full salary. In fact, I got bonuses. This pay check kept my financial bus rolling. My ego hated all the alone time. I felt isolated from the world. But this job supported me as I went through my deepest clearings. It was as if I had a husband to support me while I lost my mind. I felt many times like I had lost my mind.

I wanted to be around people but I didn’t it. In those days, I had a hard time holding my energetic field while around other people. I thought about getting a new job but there was a part of me that didn’t want that either. By 2017, I worked from home 90% of the time. The workload decreased every year. The reality was slowly fading away. Every year I thought it would end. This job lingered on for years.

There were so MANY times where I wanted to get another job. My ego wanted to contribute again and make a difference. But there was a stronger part of me that said stay the course. This job was there for a reason. It allowed me to create my next realities, which would be my soul purposes. I established The Art of Intuition, in March of 2017. I wrote articles and workshops. I did videos. I was writing the next chapter of my life. All I had to do was be on call when my boss needed me. Which might be 5 hours a month and the rest of the time was mine.

Let’s talk about my boss. We might not have started off best buddies. Through the years our relationship had challenges but that was the roles we would play. The more discordant the job became the less and less I had to experience it. On some level, my boss knew that. She would support me over our last few years together. I would look at her through different lenses as time passed. By August of 2019, I would appreciate her for fulfilling her soul contract to me. She was to support me financially during that stage of my process. That was her role. When that stage of my journey was complete, the job would end.

It did end. There was a part of me that was so happy. I was moving on. After a while the job had felt like purgatory. I thought it would never be over. Then it was in a blink of an eye. August 2019, the company eliminated the position and I was free. My team took me to lunch and I hugged my boss. Although this phase of my life took many twists and turns, it ended in its highest place.

Now I mention the part of me that was happy. Did I mention the part of me that was scared? This job had paid 85% of the bills. This job had paid the mortgage. The company I had created was not bringing in any money. After longing to be free, I was scared out of mind. I started scanning websites for jobs. I would work through that fear through the next year. Each time the financial situation would get worse, it would bring up another layer of fear. But I would stay the course and not get another finance job. That part of my life was over. I had to accept that.

We never appreciate what we have. That was a lesson I would learn repeatedly. For the four years I had that job, I asked every night for it to end. I pictured myself riding off into the sunset with my business making millions of dollars every year. The fact was I still had so much programming left to clear. I still lived in lack programming. The depths of it I would not even see till a year later. I was still in my own way. Yes, my business would start to get some traction but not enough to pay the bills. I was heading for a complete financial reset.

I would look back at the job and remember it fondly. I sometimes wished I was back there and not having to worry about the mortgage payment. I wished I would have appreciated it more. That is the way of our human. We don’t know what we had till it is gone. I understood why it had to end. I had so many expectations on the next phase of my journey. Another lesson I would learn. The soul doesn’t expect anything, our human does.

The next phase for me was nothing but rough financially. That was my fault. I didn’t want to change my distorted views about money. I had to take the rough road on that one. I had to break completely. That was the path I choose. Sure, I had pasted up multiple opportunities to get my financial life on track over the years. I had wasted more money then I could count. There was no point on dwelling on that now. I had to find my way through my reset. I had to trust that much.

But this was rough. ***** 2026 Annette Here *****As I look back on the end of 2018 and the complete collapse that was about to occur in 2019, part of me is glad I was still so confused about what soul aligned realities would be. My human would not do well with what was about to occur. I said at the start this story could be a horror movie at times, well 2019 was about to kick that off.

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