My Ascension Diary - Part 18

I was in the thick of my Financial Nightmare. But I was "Still Standing!!!"

Did I mention the large amount of crying in 2019? I also found peace with each energetic clearing I had. I felt better after I busted through the fear. A good cry was a cellular clearing to remove these beliefs from my body. Each step was a way forward and deeper inside. I never went backward I went deeper. I was happy. That might seem like a strange thing to say but I was. I was free. I was free from letting others decide my worth. I was an energetic force. I was powerful enough to not let my fiscal situation define me. I would no longer validate myself through the value system of a dimension I didn’t exist in.

I would define my worth by how much I contributed to humanity. That was what mattered. I watch the people around me. All spun up in the blame, shame, guilt, fear and lack. Truth was even when I was clearing the fear over money, I didn’t get hung up on things. I might get triggered here and there but I would go deal with myself and move on. Once you expand your consciousness, the highs and lows don’t exist anymore. I would clear discordant energy from my body. That was it.

Money would become a game to me. How did it work?

Every time I would get low on money, I would give the little I had away in tip jars around my neighborhood. I had to change my transmission. If I believed that was really my last dollar than it would be. I had to send a message that I was abundant inside. Eventually, if I held that vibration long enough, money would be a response to that. I did this game repeatedly. Even when I had negatives in my bank account (which happened more times then I care to admit), I was abundant. I would not entertain any other reality. It was challenging, especially when you are 3 months late on your mortgage, phone and internet. It was a mess. I had to learn to live without (without all the stuff I had taken for granted,)

I knew I was on the precipice of a breakthrough. Every time I went through financial crunches, I would remind myself how lucky I was. I would give money away and hold that feeling of abundance. It was hard some days. Especially if I had been in the crunch for more than a week or more. But I had to focus on other things, keep creating and staying in a vibration of happiness. That is not to say I avoided it. I do what I felt guided to do and let the rest go.

Relief would come when I stopped trying to keeping all the balls up in the air. Many in the ascension world would call this a financial reset. Money was a vibrational response to what I produced. It was different in the higher realms. Nothing was guaranteed here. I was not entitled to anything. I had worked hard. I had given this journey every part of me and held nothing back. I had to believe that would be the key that would open the flood gates.

Every time I feared or avoided a financial obligation, it would manifest quickly. If I feared dealing with the mortgage company, I would go through another period of time where I had to deal with them. If I feared being late with a payment, I would be late. I realized after a while I was clearing fear. Each time I went through a situation I would clear more fear. My universe was sitting up these realities to breakdown my fiscal fears. Once I say that, I started to look at how much fear I had flushed.

I didn’t get hung up on things anymore. I would stop having sleepless nights. Well if honest I still had some. I had to look at the reason why it was happening and utilize the experience to clear the fear. If I avoided it, It would come back with a quickness. I soon stopped doing it. I used each experience and let go.

I would teach that the human will compromise everything for love and money. In 2019, I stopped compromising over money. I had learned after a few slaps in the face to stop doing that. Every time I did, my universe would teach me a lesson. And I had a few big ones that year. Eventually I had to stop trying to live and replace the amount of money I had made before. I finally had to admit that my universe was not going to send me that amount of money. I had to learn to live on little, appreciate what I had and share the small amount I had. This would last for years.

So if I would not compromise over money, would I still compromise over “human” love? There were times I found myself unsure of the answer.

The Gifts My Universe Gave Me………..

Anyone that goes on this journey will note three things. First, assistance will always be there. Second, it never comes in the way we thought it would. Thirdly, we don’t see the gift it was to later on. Sometimes when we are in the middle of it, disappoint is the energy. I know for me I had to reach a certain vibration before I would see why certain things had to occur the way they did. It was as if I gained access to more of my personal roadmap. Everything that had happen to me had served many purposes. It would be impossible to write about how many reasons why things had to happen the way they did.