My Universe Loved Me!
My universe did love me. I knew my universe was me. I had given myself these gifts to pave the road for the missions and purposes I had agreed to. Once I fully accepted that concept, I maneuvered the energies in an empowered manner. I would learn that leaving timelines open would mean they would have to be repeated. Closure became important to me. But not because my human needed it. I would close things out so I could open up to new experiences. It was important for me to end timelines that no longer served a purpose or had become disrespectful. The other parties involved might not have liked that I closed out the timelines but that was for them to reconcile. As long as I closed out everything in its highest place possible, I knew it was aligned.
People would ask me when to know when things should be closed out.
Timelines that were not aligned would eventually collapse on their own, so why close them out? There were so many answers to this question. It was more about ending things to complete the karmic timelines. It was saying no to the old energies and sending a message for the experiences I wanted to have. Prior to 2018, I would walk away from things that were out of alignment. I would not close them out because I didn’t have the personal power to have the hard conversation. There is a point in this journey where that is the right things to do.
If I didn’t have the personal power or connection inside to align a reality, it was better to walk away from it. Normally, I would get another chance later to align a similar situation. The energy would come back around again so I could gauge where my connection was. That was the point. Once I was able to align the realities or close them out, my life got easier. I would teach that deep down we always know the right action to take. Sometimes we know walking away is best because it would take to much energy to align it. Sometimes we are supposed to make that effort. There came a point when I knew which was the path to pursue.
In the years between 2015 and 2019, I would see many of my realities collapse. People would come and go. I would later see that we were doing a cosmic dance. People would show up and we would do an energetic check in. Then they would go away and return months or years later. We would check in again and the dance continued until the vibration was reached where we could have a reality together. It took me a while to realize that was what was going on.
I did so much clearing during those years. It should have made sense that I would have many people come in and out. I was raising in vibration so fast, that most people didn’t stay for long. I needed to find my power in those years. They were tremendous for me. Don’t get me wrong, when I was going through them it wasn’t a picnic. My ego was having fits. I was lonely. I felt like the world had gone on without me and perhaps I would disappear altogether. But in that timespan my universe brought me gifts. Now at the time, they didn’t feel like it. Now I can see how big they were.
For the essence of time, I won’t list out every gifts my universe gave me while I tried to find my footing. Technically everything was a gift but it can be hard to see in some moments. The ones that follow where the most impactful. They would be things I would look back on and my heart would overflow with gratitude for the gifts they were.
My Universe Sort of Brings Me a Job
This was one of my more beautiful creations. It would perplex the outside observer for years. No one could believe I was had a job like this. Honestly, I couldn’t either. I mentioned the day I meet my third twin; I got a job. The date was October 9, 2014 (give or take a day or two). I remember there was full moon energy.
It was a long drive from my house but I knew it was meant for me. It was for a small non-profit and the position was new. On some level, it felt exciting to create something new. At the time, I had no idea what that would mean for me.
From the start, my ego was challenged with it. There wasn’t much to do. I found myself creating work and trying to make an impact. It seemed like I wasn’t getting anywhere. My ego wanted to contribute to the organization, but it didn’t seem like they really wanted me there. It felt like a bad relationship. I was beyond bored and looking for a way out by the middle of 2015.
Did I mention the drive? It was hours every day in traffic. I would drive for hours and then sit for 8 hours and twiddle my thumbs. It seemed like a dead end. I look back and see how the drive had been important to me. It gave me time to process different areas of my life. I would ask for signs and look at license plates or songs on the radio for answers. It was not an easy time for me. Sometimes I would cry on the way home. That drive provided many hours of emotional venting.
Let’s recap the end of 2014. Got new job. Meet my third twin. Lost my third twin. And I was driving hours to get to a job and have nothing to do. To say I felt lost would be an understatement.