My universe would bring me money in the most random ways. I would get checks from companies that said they owed me money. I would get babysitting jobs that would pay for my food. I never did without the essential things I needed. Now the days of me buying a new wardrobe every year were on hold till I appreciated the clothes I had. Never the less, money would come in HIGHLY unusually ways. That is what kept me going on days when I doubted my entire process. The days when my mother would tell me what a massive financial mess I had gotten myself into. She was not wrong.
She would tell me that I was in a hole. I would teach to others that people speak our fears back to us. They verbally speak what we feel inside. That is what she was doing. She was mirroring back my doubt. Sometimes when I was on the phone, I couldn’t see that. But once I got in another space I could. It showed me I had to shift my feelings on it.
I had created my financial situation over the past eleven years. I don’t blame myself for the choices I made. I was unconscious to what I was creating. But once I knew better, I could not keep creating it. The trick is that once you understand the game, you can’t play anymore.
