How I felt about my walking path was how I felt about my home. I had moved here in 2010. It was the first home I purchased without anyone else. It was a portal for me. Major transformations took place there. My address added up to twenty-one. It was pivotal in my process. The space spoke to me and as I expanded so did it. In many ways, it got bigger. As I expanded, it got cleaner. My soul needed the room so all the clutter had to go. I had no attachment to anything so giving stuff away was easy. As my vibration raised, I would clear out anything that was of the old.
One of my neighbors would say my house echoed. In a way it did. It embodied the vastness of the soul.
I would honor it with fresh flowers and weekly cleanings. I knew that even though I was struggling to pay the mortgage that I needed to give it a makeover. As my vibration raised, the home had to raise also. If not, it could not support my body during my next phase. It didn’t matter what it costs. If I felt to spruce it up, I did it. I would ask my universe for the money and did what I was shown to do.
I would put it into service. I no longer needed an outside office space. My home was a place where people could come and raise their vibration. Sure, some people would not want to come in. The space was to much for them but I never took that to heart. The space would be there when they were ready for it. Everything about me was in service. When I say I gave this journey, everything I had. I did.
No matter what the price of it would be. I was on a different mission now. I was striving for something beyond the human existence of fear and lack. I wanted to go beyond the normal everyday way of thinking. This journey will do that. It pushes you past every comfort zone you have. There is no off switch. The energy was mine to break. Until I did, then I would remain stuck between the life I had and the life I wanted.
*****2026 Annette**** I wrote this in the middle of 2019. I still thought I would be able to get the money to keep the house. I called for it every day. I hoped and I wished. I cried. I screamed. I gave up and then “tried” again. I can look back and see now that the money was never coming to pay my mortgage. I remember thinking what did I do wrong. I was losing everything.
What I did not understand then was that the space was not big enough for my next phase. I had to be forced to sell, get what money I could and walk away. I felt like a loser. I started this journey to have an amazing life by human standards (that was the only standard I knew.) Now 6 years in, I had lost my job, my savings, my home, my boyfriend and my friends. It was all gone. My human life was over. I was walking away with enough money for a few months. After that I did not know and part of me was terrified.
The bottom line, if it is not highest aligned to your journey it’s not going to happen. Period. It doesn’t matter if you require $10 to make it happen. You won’t get it. Trust me. I know. On the other hand if it is aligned and you need $8,000 to make it happen. You will get it.
More on that to come…..