I got my first wake up call. Problem was, I didn’t see it at the time. I can’t exactly say I hung up. I guess I inadvertently put in on hold. Now I should not be so hard on myself. I was exactly where I was supposed to be. I was not behind in my journey. I was not yet at the consciousness level to understand the divine nature of the entire journey. I was still reactive to my plan for soul expansion. I was not proactive to navigating it.
I was not embracing the true beauty of the journey. I didn’t appreciate things. It is hard to appreciate something when it is there.
That is the nature of our human aspect. The innate working of our lack and scarcity programming. Until we don’t have something, we don’t appreciate it. For some reason, to our human, everything looks better in hindsight. It is amazing how attractive a situation looks when it is leaving your life. That was true for me. I would be working through this program for many years.
I will admit I never thought much about twin flames. I can’t say I knew what the word was till 2016. Then I became obsessed with the energy. The energy of twins is a matrix within itself. They are so romanticized in book and movies. What is the story? There is a runner and a chaser. They are the same soul in two different bodies. There is only one in your life.
Once I was introduced to the concept, I will admit I believed these ideas. Then the more experiences I had with the energy, the more unromantic it became. The truth was twins weren’t fun. They would take you to the deepest parts of you. They would get to you when no one else would. They would dig up obsession energy beyond anything you could ever experience. They were not for the faint of heart. But they would assist me in seeing things about myself I never knew existed.
They are profound. I no longer believe we have just one. It is an energy. They matched an energetic signature that I held. In my experience the energy would come through many forms. It was not attached to one person. It was a feeling they would activate in me.