My Ascension Diary Part 7 - My Twin Flames

Twins might not be a Cinderella story but they are a big plotline, in all our stories.

In reality, everyone in our life is a twin. They are all aspect of us. Whether they are a conscious aspect or not. But for the purpose of this book, I will use the term to define romantic partners. The person that feels like home. I understand now that they activated that feeling inside of me. They weren’t that feeling. They allowed me to reach it. Even if it was just for a moment in time. They brought up stuff to clear from my body that got me closer to that feeling.

Each time a new one would come around the signature was a bit different. They would take me to a deeper level inside. The former twin would no longer have an effect on me. I had cleared that energy from my body and there was little interest for an interaction anymore. That was how it worked for me. Twins were so pivotal in my journey.

They brought out so many issues of self-worth and lack. It got to a point where I would understand with gratitude the roll they were playing out. It took a long time for me to see that. Twins might not be a Cinderella story but they are a big plot line when clearing human programming from our bodies. Their contribution to my awakening/ascension can never be measured. If any of them read this, I want them to know that.

They took me to places that I could not reach on my own. Their end game was to bring me to a union inside myself. What an ironic plot twist. They were never meant to complete me. They were there to help me complete myself. If they stayed around, that would be a bonus. None of mine did. They would weave in and out of my life over a span of 6 years. I had many prior to the ones in this book. They might not have been the first soldiers on the ground but they were the most impactful.

One of the questions I often get asked about, is if twins know they are twins? My answer was it depends. I did not know my first three were. My last one I knew because I had reached an awareness where I could see it. I do believe they feel a pull to us. They might not know why but they know we feel like home to them. On a soul level, they know their timeline. They know how long they are supposed to stay and when their work is done. As I would say later, they know (on some level) we have business together.

I stopped wondering if they knew consciously. The only thing that mattered was that I knew. Which meant I had a choice. I could get dragged through the experience or I could utilize it for the purpose it served. Each one was there to clear my human programing. My hatred for myself. All of the emotions that got in the way of me embodying the highest aspect of myself.

I would like to say I went through all my twins with this expanded awareness. I can’t say that. My first three were everything the twin experience had to offer. Exhilaration and heartache all in one package. I got dragged through those experiences. If I was completely honest, even when the fourth one showed up and I knew what his purpose was, it was still challenging.

I had to remind myself constantly what his purpose was. I knew he would be my last twin. This was my swan song. Even knowing that it wasn’t easy to step out of the fairy tale. I would loop back in it for months or weeks at a time. Then I would dust myself off and find clarity again. That is the matrix of the twins. Even the most conscious person can get lost in it. That is the point of the karmic program. Each one had a pattern and theme. They were all similar but different. Never the less, they were mine. And this is where our twin

story begins……