There was no going back. I knew that. My family and friends didn’t understand that. But I knew that. I couldn’t reattach to the old realities anymore. They no longer existed. They were an old vibration that I couldn’t tap into. That was the part that confused the outside observer. I knew that the life I wanted didn’t exist in that vibration. My old realities were in a vibration where my dream realities did not exist. They could not exist together.
I couldn’t go back into the corporate world. That vibration was so far removed. If I tried to reenter it my body would revolt. The vibration of my body was no longer aligned with it. That was the part of the journey when I had to stop trying to navigate it. Ascension is not about control. It was about letting go of everything I ever knew and starting over. The rules were different here. It was like learning all over again. Nothing was the way I thought it was.
Respect, honor and integrity become my guidelines. If I was not receiving those things, then the reality was not aligned and I would end it. If I was not acting from that space, I would look at myself. Respect, honor, and integrity would be viewed from many lenses. It was soul driven not human driven. These words mean nothing to our human aspect.
Soul respect, honor and integrity was completely different. It was living my life and allowing others to do the same. No matter their choice. It was speaking with open and honest communication. It was honoring my soul contracts. It was not offering an opinion that was not solicited. It was not doing something out of obligation. It was not giving my power away. It was releasing judgement of myself and others. It was letting someone’s world collapse because it would be a pivotal part of their awakening process. It was showing up for others, strangers and friends. It was coming from that pure place inside with no agenda. It was being the light. It was opening the doors for others and allowing them the choice to walk through it. It was keeping my heart completely open.
That was what ascension meant to me. If I was going to guide people on their journey, I had to be all in on mine. Ascension it not something you talk about. It is something you experience. If I didn’t experience it, I couldn’t explain it to anyone. We explain through stories. I needed to open up to my story and embrace it as a page turner.